Just get on with it

I’ve always been a believer in following your passions and your interests, however few I may have had. For the last few years of my working life, I haven’t quite fulfilled that promise to myself. In my early years of business, I chased the big bucks, the impressive job title, but as of late things seem to be quite different. I no longer am interested in earning high amounts or excelling in the corporate world. The aim now is to just be happy.

Now let’s dissect this for a minute, what does happiness really mean. To be content, yes. To smile, yes. But happiness seems to be such a moving paradigm it is not easy to quantify and it should not be quantified. Happiness shouldn’t be a target set, or a goal achieved. Happiness is a state of mind that we should always be working towards and not be settling for through achievements or accolades.

But I didn’t come here to give theoretical or philosophical views on happiness, and writing this blog should be giving me an outlet, not an attempt to gain likes or drive traffic to my site. It is a brain dump on what is going on in my life so as the title says “just get on with it”, so I will.

I’ve never been very good at doing what others say or necessarily following instructions. But what I have wrote about in previous blog posts on pressure, has led me to my next thoughts. I am at a cross roads with my business life and where I should go next on my path to “success” or whatever that term means to me.

What I am trying to say is that I can’t just get on with my work regardless of me not enjoying it. I have responsibilities, people to look after, a young son but none of those things seem to kick me out of bed and give me that purpose to strive for achievement in whatever I do. Call it selfish or whatever you want, and maybe to an extent I agree. That by not engaging in my job to put food on the table is a selfish act.

Looking introspectively I will be seen as selfish until I can bring the joy back into my life, that greatest love inside of me (thank you Whitney). This isn’t quite a post I’d hoped for in terms of bringing comfort or maybe a solution in those going through these issues. But I cannot get it out of my head that I need to stay in this 9-5 job without knowing there is a way out. Someone close to me has said “its just a job” but why should I settle for just a job. Why should I settle for less than a career that lights me up, after all we spend so much time doing it.

I guess as time goes by, I just need to survive, to put up with the nonsense, but find a plan. Find a plan to move into something that has a meaning, has a purpose. The world is a selfish place and no more so than sales, but I don’t want to be a part of it.